I wrote to today's story a day (dot) org prompt: Obsession and passion
Heidi
Durrow(Guest prompt) – Passions
The Prompt The
Energy of Passions & Obsessions
You become what
you think about all day long.
-Ralph Waldo
Emerson
Passions and obsessions are great starting points for
stories. So what if a character has a passion or obsession but the character
has extreme difficulty fulfilling that dream. For example, a character could
have an extreme passion with exotic birdwatching, but he can’t fulfill his
greatest wish because he is a poor child living in a big city. What does the
character do to fulfill his obsession? What happens to the character when he
can’t? What does the fulfillment of the obsession or passion mean to the
character?
Heidi Durrow is the New York Times best-selling author of
The Girl Who Fell From the Sky (Algonquin Books) which won the PEN/Bellwether
Prize. She is the founder of the Mixed Remixed Festival, an annual film &
book festival in Los Angeles.
Shadow life:
Five more pages to scan. I could see the librarian frowning
in my direction after she pointedly looked at the clock on the wall above her
for the third time. I felt the pressure of time and fidgeted impatiently as the
ancient photocopier flipped out another page. I looked at the microfiche film
cabinet one last time. I would be back to get the rest. This information had
taken me too long to track down but I wasn’t sure I could stay another day to
get it all.
I had almost tripped three times on the frayed carpet in the
hallway coming back up the dark stairwell. The muffled thud of the music downstairs
was beginning to give me a headache. The whole place stank of stale beer and
sweat poorly dampened by vile lemon disinfectant giving the whole place the
aroma of a urinal.
I spread the papers over the worn chenille bedspread and put
it in order.
I looked down at the bulging case I carried everywhere and
took stock. I now knew more about his heritage and life than he could possibly
know. I knew which ship his ancestors had arrived on, who had been born, who
died, where they were buried and why his surname was so uncommon. This folder
contained everything his brothers lives contained, this one was his parents,
this one his medical records and this one - I pulled that one out and flipped
it open on the floor. Glossy photographs fell on the carpet; wedding photos of
a beautiful bride smiling up into his face. The sunlight shining brightly on
their glossy hair catching the diamantes in her veil sending sparkles around
their heads. A copy of the wedding certificate. Photos on their honeymoon. I
knew everything that could be known about her too. I slid the photos back in
the file and the file back in its place in the case.
I would have to be back at work in two days. I was cutting
it fine. If I lost this job I would not be able to afford the next step. I feel
my shoulders lift in a shrug. It doesn’t matter. I will find a way. I roll my
shoulders back and try to ease the tension. I needed sleep but doubted I would
get any in this dingy noisy ill smelling place. The mattress sagged over
protesting bedsprings. I put my head on the lumpy pillow and watched the rain
pelt in yellow ripples against the glass. I thought about him. I thought about
nothing else.
He was my reason for breathing. He invaded my every waking
thought and haunted my dreams. I yearned for him like I yearned for oxygen, as
instinctive as my heart beat as automatic as muscle memory. No one else could
take his place, no one else could compare. He was mine, I was his and yet here
I am and he was there with her.
What is wrong with me? I am in a dingy hotel in an outer
reaches hick town printing off archaic documents from an outdated system and I
suddenly wondered how infatuation had become obsession. When had lust fallen
over the crevasse into surreptitious stalking? I was tired, broke, alone and drifting.
Outside my beaten up wreck of a car contained all that was left of my life, one
suitcase, one box of papers on someone else’s life, empty fast food packets and
the crumpled receipts from cheap hotels.
Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned but I don’t even have
that to keep me warm, just my dull obsession dragging me from one place to the
next chronicling the life of a man who was so unremarkable he barely made a
blip on the internet, a man so unassuming as to never appear in a newspaper, a
man so ordinary he was hardly worth all these endless hours of what? My
obsession. My willing sacrifice of all other life because when he was gone I
had no life. The very thing that animated me was him. Without him I am nothing
so I drag myself to the case and open up the folders and vicariously live.
Tomorrow I will print his obituary. 706
the story turned out a little darker than I expected but I like it.
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